Bad at this…
I hardly ever write things on here. I mostly just re-blog things that I think are funny or cute but tonight I just need an outlet.
My heart is so heavy.
I have never wanted to be in one place more than I want to be right now.
My life is chaos here at Asbury and I wonder sometimes who will be there when graduation comes and goes and we no longer live here on this small campus? I get so worked up sometimes about things that don’t even matter when you look at the big picture.
One of the things that does matter is that my Grandfather- who just this morning had a kidney that did not function at all is now the recipient of a new, healthy kidney. One of the coolest parts is that it is my aunts kidney. I just can’t stop smiling thinking about it. So much generosity and love. I am so blessed with a loving family. Seriously.
Then there is my best friend. We have grown up together. Basically friends since birth. I moved away the summer before senior year but we have still managed to remain close. The hardest thing in the world is to see people you love in pain. Right now her step dad is in the hospital and is scheduled for surgery in the morning. Just a few months ago he was diagnosed with cancer and has been struggling with the treatments. So far nothing has been ablet o shrink his tumor and he is slowly getting worse. He is 34 years old.
Things like that absolutely break my heart. To see my best friend have to be so strong for her family and face this everyday. I could never do it. I am amazed at her positive attitude. I know from speaking with her that she is hurting and scared just like everyone else but she knows she has to be strong for her step dad and her mom.
When I think about the things in life that really matter- like family, friends, love, and health I just can’t help but think that people gossiping and acting childish is not something to get worked up about
